2024. I have been putting off writing this because I didn’t want to feel like it was just getting caught up in the New Year’s zeitgeist. I am not a huge fan of resolutions, mainly because I was never good at the follow through. We are almost 2 weeks into the new year however, and I have been able to sit down and think about what I really want out of myself now. I am no longer a young man, nor am I an old man. I need to expect more from myself. I have this habit of withdrawing into myself, retreating from life for various reasons. Depression, anxiety, lack of motivation coming from both, feeling down about various parts of my life, and the list goes on; I know I am not unique in that sense.
I think it’s time I try to break through some of my own insecurities and be a better version of me. I don’t hate myself (today), but I know I have many areas in which to improve. I find myself not even indulging in my hobbies in my free time, I mainly just binge crap TV lately. I have a huge backlog of Gunpla, and I really haven’t touched video games yet this year. Therapy helps, but I have also been neglecting my health with both the medications I should be taking and working out.
I know with video games, I will be good in a few weeks with the release of Like a Dragon: Infinite Wealth, as well as the imminent release of Persona 3 Reload. If I had to say which I am more excited to play, honestly Like a Dragon is a brand new direction for the series, and appears to be a very fitting sendoff. I have no doubt that game will make me cry. Persona 3 is an amazing game, my major hope for it is that the female protagonist route gets added as some DLC, or the Persona 3 Ultimate edition or some shit. I am used to buying Persona games twice, I’ll do it for that too.
In any case, this post is actually longer than I thought it would be. I want to get back to writing on this desperately, I miss putting my thoughts out there for the few who deign to read. I don’t know what the future holds, I just know I want to be present more in my own future. Here is to hoping.
Ray Knows Nothing 